Life now

Honestly everything in my life is damn fucked up now.
School just barely started, and I'm forced back to being hardworking but I'm still unable to cope whatever is being taught. This sucks. Yes I am not only stupid, but also a very slow learner.

Getting into X was the best thing that could ever happen in my life because indeed it is a very rare opportunity. But ever since I got to know everyone, meetings were never going my way. Every single time I would cry without fail. Lousy planning, zero efficiency. Im sick of all these already. Fuck off guys.

Always having to feel left out, not being able to fit in, not attractive enough for people to start conversation with.  How many times I cried for being not pretty enough to get chosen while other girls dont even have to try to be pretty. Im so sick of all these superficial and judgemental shits even though I admit I do it too. Karma I guess, fuck it. This is my life, my sucky life that I have to go through.

Hate projects, hate meetings, hate socialising.
All I want to do is have enough sleep and do what I feel comfortable with.