I really hope I would laugh at this post 10 years down the road.
I hate the person I am now, or perhaps the people around me that has made me so upset to a point that I would want to give up on them.
Why why why do people want to change to someone so superficial and forget those that are their true friends who can stay with them till they die?
I know best friends are suppose to accept each other for who they are and their changes, but it has come to a point where I myself, cannot take the huge change anymore.
No longer the positive girl you used to be, no more cafe hopping dates, no more tgif dates to everywhere anywhere we would go just to explore good food and take nice pictures.
Blame me for being not bubbly anymore, because I am so affected by your change how do you want me to stay as happy as before? The only way, I guess, is to give you up as a best friend.
I guess in life there are no relationships that will go smooth, just when I thought we were exception.
I suppose people change, when they are legal, or some big thing that impacts each life. But, why for the worse? I really wish people aren't so passive and would stand firm on their ground and not wavered by temptations. So stuck with the surface you have now, you don't even see all you ever need is just me, and only me. If we survived the whole of last year together, loving each other's presence, why do you still need other people that only gives you the surface happiness? But overall, its your own choice, your own happiness. I have no more rights to intrude your life because I have officially given you up as my best friend after almost 3 months of struggle.
The struggle has been nothing short of pain, flashbacks and tears. You've chosen the superficial things in your life over me and it is what I have to accept. Hope 10 years later, you'll look back and realise you made a very bad decision and lost a lifelong friend. At least I know I've tried to make things work out, but each time it just goes back to frustration and tears. I am human, I get tired too.
Goodbye, my ex bestest friend.
I have loved you.
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